This is going to be a short post… Which is good since no one reads this damn thing.
I had this thought. The absence of God’s ‘presence’ in my life and his seemingly lack of care or involvement in my life leaves me wondering how good is really is. Have you ever begged God to come through or pleaded for him to show himself? I don’t really know of any time he has come through for me when I needed him that can’t be easily explained away. Right now I am unemployed and depressed. I haven’t been able to find a job. I wish Joel Osteen was right because then I could just name it and claim it and doors would be opened to me. anyway, I’ve had this thought: If God is real then he is like an alcoholic absently father he is almost never around and when he does come around he is always angry and gets a little handsy with your sister.
Some of my christian friends–especially the ones I went to bible college with–would tell me that either 1. I’m not trying hard enough, or 2. I’m in a time of trial like Job. My response is I try to find jobs as hard as anyone else, and my situation is absolutely nothing like Job’s. It’s a bad economy and if God exists he doesn’t come to my aid when I call him.
If you’re a christian and you’re worried about me then pray for me if it makes you feel better.
And I’d love for God to prove me wrong. I would hate to end up not believing the thing I went to college to learn how to teach people about.
I’ll end with a passage from a psalm: “How long will you forget me oh Lord? Forever?”
